Options.

Till last month, i was lingering onto this one option, hanging onto it by the noose of a thread. The thought crossed my mind a thousand times in a day-this is it. This is make or break. This is what is going to define my future. Frankly, i was disappointed with myself. That inner voice kept saying - If only i were serious, life would have been so much more better. The dimension would be bigger. A whole new dream, a whole new life. But as it is said, its no use crying over spilled milk.

Now this month, that straight endless road, took a surprising turn. Only when it did come, i didnt want it. This is what made me laugh actually, because till a month ago i was cribbing over how life is not fair, how prayers are never answered. How i longed for that one thing which could make my whole future something so beautiful, i would want that moment to seize then and there and now, i prefer going through the toil and the extra work, because now i know, that maybe plans are different for me. Maybe this is what was meant to be after all. A friend of mine terms it as "nature's law" as in what we want we dont get, and when we do get it, we dont want it. The concept still puzzles me. I guess its just a way of showing us, that even if the option is what we have never imagined, its all we have got. So at the end of the day, instead of cribbing over how life could have been so much more better with one right step, ive learnt that one should value what he or she has. Instead of crying over options which have gone by, make that one option work so well, that you would never have to look back and think - what if.

I am doing that now, and it is working wonders. Prayers are answered, only not in the way we want it to be answered, but in the way it needs to be answered.